I've always had problems with getting my priorities straight. I'm constantly putting people and trivial things before my relationship with God. At first it doesn't seem like a big deal because I'm happy for a while and everything seems fine but after some time I realize that the happiness doesn't last and that these things that I've made my first priority are temporary and unrewarding. I've learned the hard way that anything that I build without God as the foundation is going to fall apart. So now I'm making my relationship with God my first priority and I know that if I live my life for Christ he will create something meaningful through me. It's not going to be easy to keep this up and I know that but life isn't about taking the easy way out, it's about creating something meaningful that will make an impact and living selfishly and letting my priorities stay out of whack will never lead to anything meaningful.
Sunday, December 7, 2014
I figure since I'm in my last semester of highschool I should start to figure out who I am and what I want to do with my life. So far I've realized it's a lot easier to figure out what I want to do with my life and who I want to become than to figure out who I am right now. It seems silly to say that I don't know who I am, I mean I've been myself for almost eighteen years and yet I still don't know much about myself. I know that I like music and that I like to make people happy but other than that I find myself sort of changing with the group of people I surround myself with. I'm not a chameleon and I'm not comfortable with how much I change depending on who I spend time with so I'm determined to actually get to know myself and to stand firm with who I am. I think the first step in figuring out who I truly am is to become stronger in my faith because I believe that in order to know who I am I have to find myself through God. I tend to water down my religion in front of my friends who aren't religious and I tone down my faith in front of pretty much everyone around me because I don't want to be judged but now I realize that hiding my faith also hides a big part of my life. So today I'm beginning a journey to find myself through my faith and I'm using this blog so that I can look back later in life and see how far I've come. I hope you'll come along on this journey with me and that you'll get to know yourself a little bit more.